No need to excuse for being away for a bit. You keep being you :)

It’s true, there’s no need for me to excuse myself. 

However, I think that I should be responsive to messages and Asks, and have an engagement with the people who choose to follow me and read my blog ^^. I think that the difference between a whole bunch of ABDL pictures, and a real person is when the person chooses to interact.

When I disappear for a while (or for good), then maybe my blog falls back to just being a whole bunch of (meaningless) ABDL pictures. I think that would be very sad.

Hello, very good job your work in Tumblr. I have some questions for you :How many languages do you talk?What is the name of your stuffy shark?What is your favorite pastry?In the little world, why did you wear again diaper at your age?Do you prefer diaper for girl or any diaper with baby print or simply diaper?Have a nice dayShark kiss

xD you attached a weird photo to this Ask. It distracts me a lot. So let’s get this Ask over with before I lose my mind.

Thank you for saying that I am doing a good job on my “work” in Tumblr. Keep in mind that I do this for fun ^^. I accept donations (in the form of diapers, or even money), but despite my gratefulness of these things, I would take my pictures and write my messages also without those. I can remind you (and others reading this) that I do have a website: , which is like a copy of my tumblr blog and all my pictures, maybe you’ll find it more easy to navigate ^^

I only know Dutch and English. I would love to be able to learn French, but my skills in languages are very poor and thus I will probably never speak French properly. I’m sorry. I know that the name of my blog is in French, which suggests that I speak it, but I don’t oops 

The shark plush doesn’t have a real name. In Dutch, the word for shark is “haai”, which is pronounced like “hiiii”. Saying hello to a Dutch shark is kinda funny XD. On my blog, I call the plushie “sharkie” for lack of a better name. By now, it’s too late to give it a name. I sleep with it every night, so I also wash it in the washing machine every few weeks. When it is drying, after his swim in the washing machine, I have to sleep one night without it and it bothers me more than it should. Also, when I sleep at a different place than my own bed, it bothers me a lot that I cannot hold my fish in my sleep   :<   There are LITTLE problems

xD There are too many pastries for me to choose from, to choose a favourite. I like lots of different pastries. Flan Breton, Éclairs, Madeleines, Financier, Chouquettes, Mille-Feuille (which the Dutch also copied as tompouce / tompoes), but also more normal stuff like pain au chocolat, and regular flan. There are many more pastries that I would like to try, especially Breton pastries 

Hm I’m not sure what you’re asking, but I think you’re asking me why I am wearing diapers during my ageplay sessions, in which I’m around 3~ish years. I can’t be sure what it was exactly like, being a real toddler. I only have a few clear memories of those times. As a toddler I wore diapers during the day until around age 3 (I think), and during the night I still needed diapers until I was around 7 or 8 years old. After that, I distinctively remember wanting to wear diapers again to satisfy my inner desires. As a teen and adult there’s also the sexual aspect, and some of my most intense orgasms have been in a diaper. But I dunno, I just want to wear diapers? Maybe one day I will figure it out. We moved two times, when I was a young kid. For that, I switched primary schools once (second move was closer by). The friends I had as a kid were all gone, and I wouldn’t even know their names now. At my new primary school, I had to make new friends but I was also bullied a lot. I suppose that these things are somehow connected to me wanting to continue wearing diapers. I tend to ageplay once per week, or sometimes once per two weeks, and this is enough to control my desires. It’s not a big problem for me, and I will not seek psychiatric help for it ^^. My diaper wearing and ageplay are like self-medicating, I think?

I’ve worn lots of different diapers! I enjoy cute pink-printed diapers the most. But I will not complain if there are only medical diapers to wear ^^; it doesn’t give the same babyish feeling, but I suspect that little bedwetting coucherquin also didn’t wear baby diapers at age 7 XD. My parents probably put me in XS medical diapers.Unfortunately I have no clear memories of this. So yes I have my weird preferences ^^, but I won’t complain. Sorry for the long Ask post. I hope I can receive more Asks in the future!

If you had more free time, what would you spend it on?

If I had more free time, I would definitely try to visit family and friends more often. They deserve it, I enjoy seeing them, and what’s the purpose of living without spending time with others? ^^;; That last thing is my opinion, please don’t be offended by it. I’d love to spend more time on making and arranging music.. Also of course I enjoy learning new stuff, so I would also love to spend a lot of time on that! It’s a weird Ask. This Ask makes me realize that I may be spending my time on the wrong things, right? Why am I doing anything, if I am not spending time on the things I like doing? So weird. Something for me to think about

If I had more spare time, I would probably also take more pictures. Not necessarily more ageplay pictures but probably also more of those kinds of pictures ^^. I would probably also ageplay more often, cus I don’t do it as often as I want to right now.. I want to melt into a puddle, and pamper my inner baby with the cutest and softest outfits! But there’s just too many other stuff that I have to spend my time on


Are you a creative or a logical thinker? Do you think either one of those is better than the other?

Hm well I guess I’d be a logical thinker. Photography and making music is probably a creative process, but I think I’m approaching both in a logical way. I kind of assume that the people who claim they’re creative thinkers unknowingly are applying the same tricks and ground rules to (for instance) photography as those who learn about it in a logical way. If that makes sense? But don’t take this as a truth, I could be completely wrong ^^;;

I do wonder whether all my photo effort is appreciated? Are my blog posts liked because of how well the pictures are taken, or because of my body? … Maybe I shouldn’t be surprised if it was only the second option, though it’s difficult for me to believe


Could you show a video of fluffing a diaper?

I probably can take a short video of that, but I’m not sure if people are really interested in it? 

You should definitely fluff up a diaper before you wear it! Diapers are very strongly compressed before they’re packaged, to make them easier and cheaper to transport and mail ^^. Before you wear a diaper, you should fluff them up to bring them back to their original thickness. That’s one reason why my diapers are always so thick! But I also usually use a stuffer to make my diaper thicker. I can also recommend you to use stuffers! I use disposable stuffers, but more often reusable ones. I have a few absorbent cotton sheets, which were sold as cloth baby diapers, which I fold into a long sheet to use as a reusable stuffer. Cotton stuffers do get dirty if you pee in them, so you can soak them in water for a few hours to get rid of most pee and then wash them with your other towels at 60°C. See? Lots of diaper tips from this Apex Predator!


Do you have and use bottles and pacifiers?

I think I answered this Ask before? I’m not sure if something happened to the Ask. The answer is that yes I do use bottles and pacifiers. Here’s a picture of some of the ones that I have. This bottle got a little dirty from drinking tea from it. I think I scrubbed it clean later but there’s still some discoloration from it. I think babies shouldn’t drink tea from a bottle xD. 


When was the last time you cried? If you’re okay with talking about it, what was the reason?

Thank you for this Ask! It’s a little bit personal.. I cried a lot after I had my previous cat euthanized, but this is already almost a year ago (29-11-2019) so it’s not something which is recent. 

Sometimes I wonder whether I’m making the right choices in life. I’m not being successful in a regular way, am I? I don’t have a partner, I don’t own a house, I don’t own a car, I don’t even have a driver’s license, I don’t have kids, I don’t often go on holiday. What do I even have? I rent an apartment, I ride my bike, and I am lonely. Usually I am too busy to worry about these things, and I feel that I accomplish enough other things to make up for my downfalls. Though, occasionally it hits me in the face that my life lacks things which the majority of other people find more important than creative and scientific accomplishments. I’ll lie down in my bed to cry for an hour, and then I drink a bottle of wine and get drunk and do other stupid things. What do you think about this? 

What is your spirit animal?

xD Hm I wonder whether it’s sharks or cats. Or maybe both? It’s not even that I like sharks that much, they’re just the right shape to hug in bed and just the right amount of weirdness to be funny.  This is me wearing a Bambino classico v2 with thighhighs and hugging my shark:


What does your ABDL paradise look like?

Thank you for the Ask! If I am ever able to purchase a home, and have a stable long-term job, I will probably look into the possibilities of having a room dedicated to my nursery. I have mentioned before, and others have remarked on it as well, that my bed and sleeping area is already a bit like a nursery, and if you think about it what really is a nursery? In my pictures I mostly show myself in my bed or in my bathroom, cus I think it’d be a bit boring to show myself in the kitchen or in the hallway. 

If you’re able to decorate your sleeping area in a cute way with bright colors, with stuffies soft pillows and with other things that remind you of your youth, then is that not a nursery already? When people talk about adult baby nurseries, I guess what they’re talking about is more than what I’m suggesting here. They’re talking about an adult baby crib, and other AB furniture like a high chair, a playpen, soft carpeting or those rubber mats on the floor, nursery decorations on the wall, babyroom-themed curtains and a babyroom-themed lamp. That’s way more than what I have in my sleeping area.

I don’t know how far I would take it with the nursery. I’m usually happy with the bare minimum and even right now I’m fairly happy with my room and with how babyish it is. But I deserve something, right? I think if I were to have my “ABDL paradise”, I would definitely want to have a large crib that I can comfortably sleep in, I’d like to have cute babyish dresses and tights (and diapers of course), soft carpeting and toys to play with ^^. Probably I would like to be taken care of by a person, who treats me like a baby girl and who plays with me as if I’m a real baby, and who feeds me and changes my nappy. With all those things, I would have satisfied all my ABDL desires. This is what my bed would usually look like; with brightly colored bedsheets, my shark plushie, and (although it’s not shown in the picture) usually extra blankets and pillows. Also of course I’m diapered and out-of-my-mind melting away in my littlespace ^^


Do you like taking selfies?

xD Thank you for this Ask. This one is going to be hilarious. 

I’ve taken almost 3000 pictures for this blog, mostly of myself in various adult baby-ish poses and situations. But in reality I almost never take selfies. I play around with Snapchat on my phone, sometimes, but I’m not the sort of person who would save those kinds of selfies. It’s not that I lack self-confidence for this; it’s that I don’t see a reason to take selfies. I don’t know anyone who I’d send those selfies to ^^;;

I do love taking pictures of people. But the joy of taking pictures, for me, is to showcase a person in a way they don’t normally see themselves. Taking a photo and displaying it in the way I want is a form of art, right? A photo, for me, isn’t about displaying what reality is like. With a phone, the pictures look very bland to me, exactly how my own eyes see it. With a big camera, I can set it to save RAW files, and edit those raw files on my laptop later. Also, with a big camera I can use a flash, choose a big aperture to play with the background, change the iso, and I don’t have to worry about the camera “deciding” on the wrong settings like the white balance. I use Capture One to edit my raw files, and I can recommend everyone to look into how to save photos in raw to be able to edit them manually. Because it gives you a lot more room to ‘rescue’ a photo which you thought had failed into something usable, but also to play around with pictures to make them look more artsy. 

This is me wearing a Bambino Bellissimo :


*air hugs you* I hope everything is going well and I want you to know we all support you!

Thank you for this Ask and for saying that about supporting me ^^. I’m not so sure if everyone supports me, but I am glad that some people do support me, which I’m very grateful for ! ^^.. We should all care about others a little more, it would make the world a little better overall. I definitely need to make more time to spend with my friends and family, and to take better care of myself while I’m at it !

This is me wearing a blue Playdayz Classic:


From what I can tell, you’re using an old fullframe camera, and a really old flash. These are quite difficult to use but you seem to have no issues with them? Who taught you how to take pictures?

Hello, thank you for this Ask! Yes, I have a Sony A7.. but really, taking pictures and editing the raws is much easier than you may think ^^;;. If you lock the iso to 100, you have a LOT of dynamic range (compared to higher isos) as long as you don’t overexpose. As far as I understood it, higher isos just software-increase the illumination anyway, it’s not changing the sensitivity of the sensor I think? You do need a lot of lights in your room, or sunshine.. so I use a flash to provide lights. For now, I’ve been putting the big flash on my camera itself (the A7 doesn’t have a flash of its own) I’ve been wanting to try using a remote flash (so it’s not on my camera) to make it easier. Maybe someone can suggest me something?  


You’re absolutely adorable 😍 people just need to look at your cute outfits instead of trying to get you to do stuff you’ve said no too

Thank you for this Ask, and for saying that you think that I’m adorable ^^. 

There’s a few things which I wish people would stop Asking me, but in the end it doesn’t really matter, I guess. If an Ask is clearly disingenuous, I’ll delete it.

I do allow Anonymous Asks (it’s an option on tumblr). I answer almost (99%) all Asks which I receive. I write out my answers as interestingly as I can. 

Because of the messy interface of Tumblr, a person who casually looks at my blog will not be able to know what was asked 1000+ blog posts ago. I have around 2300 blog posts right now, which is absolutely massive. So consequently there’s a lot of Asks which keep coming back. It’s unavoidable, and I don’t mind. I try to make the best of it and I try to have all of you have fun while looking at my pictures and reading my stuff. How can a diaper picture blog be interesting? I don’t know ^^;; , I doubt I could discuss things that are actually on my mind. Instead, I try to interact with you guys to make this more interesting. Otherwise, I’m just a floppy shark..


Congratulations on finishing your PhD, especially under these conditions. It shows so much dedication and self-motivation (I have a PhD as well and commiserate). I admire your blog, and the ease with which it bridges aestheticism with a hunch of playfulness. Your pictures are beautiful, and so are you. But, I digress: I have read that you sometimes (but rarely) wear pampers to sleep. May I ask whether you wear PJ shorts (or bottoms) over them, and whether you ever sleep with a paci at night?

Hello @autonomous17 , thank you for this Ask and for your congratulations ^^; that’s really sweet of you! 

Well the reality is that I really did want to graduate much earlier (spring of 2020, before any lockdowns were known or in effect). My thesis had been approved and printed in anticipation of that earlier date. The introduction page even mentions that early-Spring date and time. But the books were never distributed. The physical books were just sitting in a bunch of boxes in an office at the hospital, waiting to be handed out to friends, family and colleagues. So, I have to disappoint you that I didn’t technically finish my PhD during ‘these conditions’ xD. That’s a detail for the history books, though. I mean it was still a little bit difficult with my original defense being cancelled, no one knowing what to do (for some time), me refusing to do a defense via Skype, and rescheduling it all the way to the end of Summer. After planning the new date, no one still wasn’t quite sure if it could even happen. The reception and party, which I planned for after the original ceremony, were of course also cancelled. Come the second time I really didn’t want to plan anything big any more. The reason for the latter wasn’t even the pandemic, it was my own mental exhaustion from still having to do PhD stuff even though it had been over half a year that I had moved away from that place. The average reader of this blog won’t be fully aware of how much work went on ‘behind the scenes’. Doing a PhD is (unfortunately and fortunately) not an ordinary job. I spent thousands of hours of my own unpaid free time writing, rewriting, and revising manuscripts, preparing them for journal submission, receiving a rejection the week after, more revisions, submit to another journal, get rejected again but offered a transfer to another journal, receive peer review, answer the reviewer’s comments in the best way I can, resubmit, etc. There were times when I thought that it would be an eternal cycle of writing and revising and that I just wasn’t good enough at writing scientific manuscripts. It wasn’t the case. About a month prior to my defense, to my own surprise, my 5th (and last) PhD manuscript was accepted for publication. It was a happy ending. I do still have a few collaborations running from during my PhD, which should probably end up in publication (and coauthorships) one day, but that’s for another time xD. Also in reference to a certain shark V-tuber, and due to my seeming success in science, I’ll be calling myself an apex predator from now on xD. This diapered apex predator had a lot of help from others but also helped a lot of other researchers in doing analyses. 

To comment on the other stuff in your Ask.. thank you for ‘admiring’ my blog xD. You don’t have to, though. I like taking pictures with lots of colour and I’m glad that I can make others happy with my pictures. I’m not so fond of wearing diapers to sleep unless they’re thin diapers. I’m not entirely sure why this bothers my sleep, but it does. If I did, I would still wear pyjamas over my diaper, though. Also when I’m ageplaying, I would usually wear a pyjama over it. I take off my pyjamas for taking pictures, because otherwise no one can see my diaper ^^;;.  I have a few adult-sized pacis that I enjoy sleeping with, sometimes.  


Avent bottles are on of my all time favorites. Do you ever drink milk or formula on your bottle. Can we see a pic please :)

Yes, I agree. (also I answered this exact ask a few days ago, didn’t I?) The Avent bottles are better than random-brand bottles ^^. I do have two other random-brand bottles and I wouldn’t prefer them. The teat on the Avent is quite big, and the bottle itself fits nicely in my hand and even makes my hands feel smol because it’s a thick&short bottle (and not thin & long like adult water bottles). 

I do drink formula from my bottle sometimes ^^, or tea. I don’t think I’ve ever taken a picture of myself while drinking from a bottle. I’ll try to take a picture of that next time I ageplay. 

(also little fun fact. the camera I’m holding in the picture below, together with the lens and the flash, weigh around 1.4kg together, or 3.1 pounds.. When I’m taking these selfies, I’m holding the weight with 3 fingers xD.. I’m one of those people who never uses a camera strap)


Hello, I hope you are having a nice day, I would like to ask you what do you drink in your baby bottle and did you ever try baby formulas? Thanks

Thank you for this Ask! xD I have a funny relationship with formula, but I can only tell this secret to people who I know really well! Anyway, yes I like drinking formula from a bottle. I’ll lay down in my bed (but slightly sit up against the wall with a pillow in between), hug my shark plush and reach my arm around the plush to hold the bottle to my mouth. I have an Avent bottle (before they changed the design of it, maybe I should get another one). I like to pretend that someone else is holding the bottle for me.. but that’s coucherequin dreaming ^^;;. Maybe I’ll drink up half the bottle, feel that my tummy is getting all warm and full, and later finish the other half. 

I also like drinking green tea from my bottle.. I really like this, but a word of caution from this diapered apex predator: tea stains the plastic and the nipple of the typical bottle. But if you’re ok with that, then go for it ^^. In the past I’ve also drank juices from a bottle but it doesn’t give me that babyish feeling (although it is very tasty).


Hi miss coucherequin! Considering we are both from the Netherlands I wonder what your go to shop/website is for your diaper needs!

Hm I’m sorry, I should update my blog’s description; I no longer live in the Netherlands. I moved to Belgium a few months ago (I’m a traitor, I know, but I had a really good reason to move!). I buy diapers from eurodl, but I can also recommend saveexpress because the latter has much more choice. I think my friend @cofftee would recommend saveexpress. Also, @emma-abdl has modelled for saveexpress before, which makes the world feel a little smaller. 

Why don’t you have a look at those webshops to see what you think about the Rearz Princess Pink, huh? ^^ Those are one of my most fav diapers now


We wanna see you poop your diapers!

This question pops up quite often in my Asks and in my private messages. If you’re into this and you’re looking for super cute pictures of a girl doing this, please have a look at @asiandiapercutie  ‘s blog. I’m sorry, I’m not into this myself ^^.  I am into wearing cosplays while ageplaying, though! Cute, isn’t it? 


Do you wear diapers 24/7? Or are you planning to at some point?

Hello, thank you for this Ask! Usually I wear a diaper on Saturday or on Sunday for a few hours. This makes me really happy and it makes me feel relaxed. And at the end I can release some of my built up ‘tension’ oops ^^;;. I don’t think it would help me to relax if I did it more often. The idea seems tempting, but it’s better to do it only once per week to keep it special!

 On a relevant note.. it does take me a lot of time to take pictures of myself ageplaying. And because some diapers are quite hard to get, I tend to take pictures of myself whenever I wear a special diaper. I really do my best to make it a fun experience for myself but also for you.. !


With 2020 nearing its end (kind of).. do you feel that you’ve accomplished what you wanted to accomplish this year?

Thank you for this Ask! (Also, my Ask queue is empty right now, so feel free to ask me stuff ^^)

A couple of years ago, I told myself that I wanted to finish my PhD before I was 30 years old (when I started it, I was 24 years old, so that was entirely reasonable). Albeit with a little bit delay, I was able to complete my doctoral thesis and defend it and attain my doctor (PhD, not medical) title in 2020. Seeing that I’m still 29 at the moment of writing this, it seems that I was successful ^^.

In this year, I also wanted to get an answer from myself what I’d be doing with my future. A PhD is not per se a university education, but in a way it is. Therefore, at some point you will want to know what’s next. I was unfortunately not able to get a clear answer from myself what I’d like to do the next decade or so. Instead, I essentially postponed the decision by applying for a postdoc position, and somehow managing to get a postdoc job offer. To be clear, the options which one has after a PhD are quite broad; from continuing in academia (via a postdoc), to joining a pharmaceutical company as a researcher or program manager/director, all the way to working as a (medical) writer or even starting up your own company. Of course, one can choose to completely exit the whole field and do a random job xD. Though,  if you choose not to use the acquired skillset, you may feel guilty for having used up so much public research funding, which was essentially spent on you to train you to become a scientist. 

I told myself that after finishing my PhD, I’d like to move back to where I was born, or at least closer to it, to reconnect with family and friends. This bullet point is a little bit difficult, because I do live closer by, but pandemic fear has increased our distances. I was successful at finding a job closer to where I was born, and I can in fact visit family and friends more often. Though, some of my friends don’t wish to see me, because they are afraid of becoming ill. I won’t further comment on this ^^;;;, let’s see how this will evolve. 

I kinda wanted to get my driver’s license in 2020, but I doubt I’ll do it this year. Maybe next year? Who knows. I can still bike whenever and wherever I want to xD. 

As with any year, I wanted to learn more about photography and I’d like to improve my photography skill. Especially taking timed photos of myself. You can be the judge of that xD. I’ll stop for now, this message is too long and won’t be read.


Here’s a question for you do you have a least favorite diaper that you’ve tried for me I research the diapers I buy so I’ve been able to say away from some of the bad ones

Thank you for sending me an Ask! 

My least favorite diaper is the Attends Slip Active m8 (and m9). These diapers have one tape on each side (so two tapes in total) and therefore fit me very poorly; i.e. the middle part of the diaper doesn’t stay snugly around my thighs and instead narrows up over time. I bought a pack (with 28 diapers) of these diapers in 2013 (I think?) and it took me until at least 2016 to finish it. I did have other diapers in the mean time, of course. At some point I started buying Abena M3 packages and I loved those diapers for their simpleness and effectiveness. Though, this was a time before I started exploring ageplaying, so I was mostly just masturbating in these diapers. I should just have thrown the Attends away instead of wearing them reluctantly, I am not incontinent after all so I don’t per se need uncomfortable diapers. What sense does it make to wear bad diapers when you’re doing it for fun? ^^;;

With that in mind, I should really start approaching my diaper choices more ‘scientifically’, so I could have lists of diapers that I can strongly recommend and other diapers which I would recommend more for low budget or something like that xD. But maybe the viewers of my blog just want to see my ass and thin frail body in diapers instead of reading silly analyses of diapers