When I’m surrounded by soft clean things, I feel really good and comfortable. I’ll be in my bed, with lots of blankets, hugging my plushie, sucking on a pacifier, wearing a diaper and pyjamas and soft socks. I think that doing these things in a crib would only amplify the feelings.
I can’t explain it very well. There’s a thing inside me that compels me to pretend to be a baby. Initially it’s not even about sexual arousal. I sleep with a plushie because I want to ageplay. I want to put on a diaper because I want to ageplay. I don’t necessarily put on a diaper because I want to masturbate, I can also masturbate with a vibe or whatever. When I’m wearing a diaper, I pee myself because that’s what adult babies do, not per se for sexual reasons. I do get horny when I’m diapering myself, because there’s such a strong association for me. After I’ve diapered myself, the horniness is replaced with a strong feeling of letting go of my adult thoughts and desires. Towards the end of my ageplay session, I do get super horny and I really have to masturbate, and the orgasm in my diaper is very very strong. On this blog, I want to focus on the non-sexual parts of ageplay. I think it’s very cute and it highlights that ABDL is a completely harmless way to have fun by yourself, with your partner or even with a close friend ^^.
I’m single so there’s limits to what I can do by myself when I’m ageplaying. What I would like most, I think, is to play baby together with someone, without any humiliation and shame. I’d need to trust the person fully, and it shouldn’t be a sexual thing (until the very end of it, anyway). The thought of wearing my adult baby stuff and snuggling with someone as I fall asleep seems so warm-hearted and loving. I’d love to wear a Bambino Cloudee, comfy socks, and a kigurumi pyjama as I hug someone and fall asleep in my comfy bed, surrounded by cute soft blankets and my shark plush. ❤️