I felt sexually attracted to diapers for as long as I can remember. I dunno why the sexual attraction exists in me. I don’t blame anyone for it. I don’t see it as a bad thing, just a bit weird. As a kid there were a few times I could steal a diaper from a (toddler) nephew/niece and I would masturbate with the diaper. As a teen I bought bedwetting and baby diapers with my own money so that I could masturbate with them. Much later as a teenager I bought adult diapers for the purpose of masturbating in them. Also around that time I got myself a vibrator and that made it a lot more exciting. The last few years I had my own home and a lot more freedom so I explored ageplaying and found out that I like it more than the sexual side of wearing diapers. I mean I still do masturbate in diapers, but ageplaying is something that gives the experience of wearing a diaper more purpose and meaning. It’s also very relaxing.