I’m sorry to hear that you’ve had to wear diapers for bedwetting issues (presumably?) for years now. What’s wrong with your health, if I can ask? Are you going to recover from it, eventually? I can totally understand that it’s better to wake up in a dry bed than waking up in a wet bed. I’m fortunate to have never wet my bed as an adult (well maybe once or twice by accident but definitely not recurring). I’m not sure I’d actually enjoy wearing diapers out of necessity, but it sounds like it at least gives you the feeling of safety and security and that’s worth a lot. 

What diapers does an adult bedwetter wear, anyway? I think I’d wear Betterdry M10 cus they’re fairly cheap and seem to absorb anything! I wore them a couple of times and I really like wearing them, although they’re not very photogenic xD. There’s a few other diapers I’d consider for bedwetting, but the most important thing is that you won’t to leak as few times as possible into your pyjamas and bedsheets cus it’s a lot of work each time to clean that.. I’ll attach two pictures of me wearing a Betterdry M10!