XD wearing diapers is supposed to be embarrassing?
I’ll answer the question for real. In a lot of abdl stories, embarrassment and public exposure seems to be a recurring theme, even beyond language barriers. By the latter, I mean that you also see it in Japanese abdl comics, and in Dutch abdl stories. So, it’s not exclusive to English abdl stories. That’s reassuring, right? Also outside of abdl, embarrassment seems to be a huge turn-on in certain situations.
As for why embarrassment and abdl would be linked… I can only hypothesize. Embarrassment is a strong emotion that allows us to remember stuff in huge detail for a long time. You tend to forget the mundane stuff, but you remember those really embarrassing things, as well as the really exciting memories. So I kinda hypothesize that the initial trigger that eventually leads to infantilism is probably related to a strong emotion such as embarrassment/humiliation. I can’t tell you what ‘causes’ abdl, because there’s probably a unique event for each one of us, though it converges to similar endpoints. My own hypothesis is that abdl is caused by a number of events where diapers co-occur with fear, anxiety, humiliation, embarrassment, anger and/or strong criticism from a parent or elder, specifically during a sensitive age window (probably 6~8 years age). The sexual element of diapers would then probably be established because of the intimate nature of getting diapered by an elder. Though, even diapering yourself at that age can probably cause the same link. People are usually out of diapers by those ages, so they likely don’t develop abdl. Continued bedwetting (and therefore use of diapers) or similar stuff probably increases the likelihood of making the association.
I’m not sure if I like embarrassment. I do like the ‘thrill’ of talking about embarrassing things. It’s hype exciting, and it makes me look forward to something. Though, if the topic of abdl is already disclosed to a partner, it’d probably lose its embarrassment quickly?? My ultimate fantasy is that I’d like to be treated as a helpless baby… Sleep in a crib wearing nothing but a diaper, onesie and socks, with a paci in my mouth. My food for the whole day would be thick infant formula given through a baby bottle, and I have to use my diaper. My caregiver plays with me, makes me color a drawing and watch cartoons, and changes my diaper. Before sleep, there’s a ‘special’ diaper change where I’m allowed to come in my diaper, but afterwards I need to sleep in my crib with a paci in my mouth and a big shark plushie in my arms 💞. I can’t even imagine how it’d feel to release a whole day of sexual tension into a wet diaper. Best feeling ever?
The delightful fantasy that you painted is indeed enjoyable to imagine if there always remains some ‘safe’ embarrassment to overcome. Â Of course, boundaries need to be respected.
There could also be equal or more incredible allure with no embarrassment with the thrill of surrendering to being dependent and vulnerable.Â
I think this is just another way of saying what you did.
But it’s not a fantasy… It’s what I’d actually like to experience ^^. Is it that much to ask for? It seems innocent and cute, to me!! I’m not asking for anything outlandish, I think???
It does seem like I’m wearing diapers every day ^^, because I post pictures to my blog every day. But in reality I can only wear a diaper once or twice per week.
To keep the engagement going, I try to post pictures to my blog every day, or multiple times per day if I’m off work. The daily pictures are coming from my picture buffer… It’s like a set of pictures that I all take on one day, while I’m ageplaying, so that I can then post them over the next weeks after that. If I didn’t do this, I’d post 100 pictures on one day and then not post anything for 4 weeks xD. That wouldn’t be very interesting. People come to tumblr every day, and they’d want to see a new post from me every day, I think.
When I’m answering Asks, I’ll use a picture from further in the past. I keep all the pictures that I’ve taken, and they’re fairly well organized.
Underneath this school uniform, I was wearing a biiiiig Littleforbig Little Dreamers ^^, a really nice diaper that will pull you into littlespace !!!
Hello, thank you for your Ask! You didn’t ask a question, but I like receiving such messages as well, so that I can comment on it and provide my insight. I realize that the ikea shark has become sort of a meme. Though, I bought it for myself because I just started living by myself, I was kinda lonely, and I wanted to have a big stuffed animal to sleep with at night. The shark was really big and it looked really cute to me! It was only much later that I found out that people on the internet were using it for jokes and pictures.
Now he sleeps with me almost every night. I don’t take him with me when I’m travelling or visiting my parents, and there’s 2 nights per month that he’s in the wash/drying. I really love him! He makes me feel comfortable and safe at night. I like to sleep on my belly and so I sleep on top of the shark. Though, sometimes he also helps me to get a magic feeling
